T.G.I.F.

It has been the longest, crappiest week. I’m venting, I apologize, but I don’t talk to people in the real world much about the shitty stuff because I am supposed to be the always cheerful one with a smile on her face who loves everything about life. Anyway, I have had to take way too much sick time lately because of sick kids. Being a single mom is usually pretty great until you need someone to stay home. All my co-workers have grown children or are married and have forgotten what it was like when they are ill. Enough on that, here’s the real downer…If you have followed any of my blog you know that I have been recently divorced. It has been wonderful because we get along much better, see each other less and he(Sam) has realized how much he took my friendship for granted. He comes from a truly screwed up family and I won’t get into the details of that (yet, unless I need some funny redneck material someday). So, the one person on his Dad’s side of the family who made everything normal and good and I loved her so, was his Stepmom (Gladys). Well, she died suddenly yesterday of a stroke. WTF??!! Why of all the fucked up people in the world and his family did it have to be her? She made Christmas fun and exciting with her unique games and gift exchanges. Thanksgiving was always enjoyable with the great food and togetherness. Now what is to happen? Her family and Sam’s Dad’s family are not going to make an effort to get together. Gladys was the glue! She was also taking care of Dad while he was going through cancer treatment. Why do we loose the ones we need the most? My faith is not wavering, but I always have so many questions when I lose someone close.
All I can say is that when I am gone I don’t want everyone to be sad for me. Yea, you hear that all the time, but I really mean it. I am so fulfilled when I can cheer someone up or make them smile. I want everyone to think of the funny(or drunken) times they had with me and stupid things I said to make them laugh. Don’t cry for me Argentina!!