Life is so unfair!

This is a sad day! I just found out that Farmboy Larry, a good blog friend, died on Saturday. I was going to post his picture, but it doesn't feel right. I knew something was wrong because we e-mailed every weekday and talked on the phone several days a week. I didn't hear a word from him yesterday......just not like him. I am not sure even how to feel. We never got the chance to meet, but yet I felt so close to him. I knew something was wrong, but he wouldn't give me the details because he didn't want to upset me. I thought it was something with his kids. I never imagined it was happening to him. He was a wonderful caring man and I am a better person just for knowing him! He let us into his real life and real feelings without holding back. Just for a man to do that shows what an open, honest, mature person he was. He was passionate about so many things and didn't hold back or play games. He always had good advice for any situation and had experienced so many things that he was a vast well of knowledge. So, here I sit at work with tears running down my face and feeling a great loss. I have never felt this much emotion for someone I never met, so I am wondering if I am a little nuts! I am sending my love to Larry's family and I know they knew what a great man he was.

Sorry if I am not around today.....Hug the ones you love right now!!

I got a tan!

Seriously, I think that was the only thing I accomplished this weekend. Okay, I did get a lot of cleaning done, but where is the fun in that? I really enjoyed having 3.5 days off, but of course it wasn't nearly enough. My to do list for the weekend was as follows:
1. Get a tan
2. Get drunk
3. Get laid
I only did #1, is that depressing? YES! Although I didn't even try at the other two. I think my priorities are all outta wack! I will be making up for it next weekend! I did swim a lot and had fun with my girls, so I guess that's all that matters. I am still half asleep. I hope you all had a fun weekend. What did ya do??

In rememberance...

In honor if Memorial Day approaching, I have put together past HNTs so we can all look back and think about all the happy times.......

FINE! I forgot to take a picture and this was the best I could do. Happy HNT!!

Washed out

I think I may be jinxed. My daughter was supposed to have her first softball game last night. The team before hers ran over 30 minutes long and the second her team took the field there was a huge lightning strike and the rain started coming down. I swear if I'm not knocking out the lights, then I am making it rain. My games are on Mon-Wed and hers are on Tues-thurs, so I have to be at the damn ball park 4 nights a week until July....they will know me well! We'll see if I get to play a whole game tonight. I am going for the score board next. ha ha ha ha (evil laugh)

Lights Out!

The funniest thing happened to me last night….okay, it was funny to me. Softball season started last week and my team never actually got a chance to practice before our games started. It was either raining or too cold for several of the sissy bitches on the team. So, our first game last Monday was the first time I had put a bat in my hands since last summer. Needless to say, I didn’t do real well hitting that night, but I play first and did get my groove back there. Well, last night was our 3rd game and I finally have my swing back. The game was late and didn’t start until after 9pm because they were having issues with the lights. The first inning we scored three and the other team scored 1. I got a base hit, but nothing to call home about. In the second inning…I get up to bat and POW, I knocked the damn thing into the outfield. Just as it is about to drop, the lights went out. Everyone started laughing cuz it was like my hit had something to do with it. We ended up having to re-schedule the game because they couldn’t get the lights working properly, so now I get to be the blamed one. Just wait until I really knock the lights out….I will be glad to take credit for that!!

Boo-Hoo

This entry is more of documentation for me than anything else, so I apologize for laying all my personal shit out there. It is not like me to let it all hang out and this is bound to get very long and boring! This weekend was a turning point in my life. As most of you that are my friends here know I recently went through a divorce. I am one of those people that fall hard when they fall. I am someone who does not ever give up easily, so to have a failed marriage has been an overwhelming disappointment in my life. I have no idea why I have had such a hard time letting go. My ex is not a very nice person, but after putting in 8 years of hard labor, I do have him changed into a much better person than when we got together. At least he finally has a few sets of morals now and his temper has calmed down a bit. Anyway, what I am saying is that I have not actually got over the relationship and he hasn’t completely either. He does have a semi-girlfriend, but since he is not working due to surgery on his arm and doesn’t get work comp, he is using her for a place to stay and eat and pay his bills(he lives an hour from here). He has been spending a lot of time at my place too and since I am in the condition I am, I have been screwing him. Being the mentally stable person I am I was sure I could separate the sex from the emotional stuff, but I was wrong(I blame the artist in me). It has been fun to have us all together as a family and the girls have really enjoyed it. My problem is that I have been enjoying it too much and have not worked very hard on moving forward with my life. I have turned down several dating possibilities because I want more than anything to be a whole family, but if he wanted the same thing, then he wouldn’t be with someone else too. I know most of his sole motivation is the fact that his girlfriend’s daddy is a millionaire, but family should come first. SO, I finally grew up and told him that I needed to get over him and that he needed to spend more time with his girlfriend and decide if she is the one that can make him happy. I also told him he could not stay at my house anymore and his time with the girls would be without me. This should give us both the opportunity to move on. I have no idea if I am doing any of the right things and I should probably seek counseling, but who has the time? Thank you for listening and have a great week!!

I have to get work done at the job I have been neglecting, so I won’t be around, but I promise to visit and get caught up with ya’ll real soon!

Sorry!

I know I have been neglecting my friends over here, I am so sorry. I have got caught up in a rowdy crowd over at the lounge. They are addictive, like Dorritos and bean dip....I just can't stop. I will be back soon and I hope you all have a great weekend!!

Open Toy Box

I thought I would see how red and purple looked together!
Happy HNT everyone!!

Grosser than gross!

Today is a much better day! I thought since several people seemed to be entertained by my nasty townsfolk, I would tell you about the nastiest married couple we have here. They are the Boyers….and yes I have no problem saying there name….please hunt them down. So here’s the image. The wife is all of 400 pounds, short dirty blonde hair (I don’t mean the color), wears glasses that are about 3 inches thick, cusses like a sailor (in public) and has the one tooth of the family ( her most attractive feature). Now I don’t want you to think I make fun of anybody. I love people and only the truly evil ones get my stamp of approval to trash about. The husband is about 4 inches shorter than his wife and only 200 pounds. He wears the same glasses (they must share). His hair looks permanently wind blown with chunks of unmentionable stuff in it. My first experience with this couple was back in my lifeguarding days. I taught swimming lessons and they enrolled their kids because it was cheap and they thought they could get a free swim out of it. Yes, this couple re-produced…. 3 very fucked up kids. They only had 2 at that time and both had severe ADHD….of course. I ended up asking the parents to go sit on a lounger away from my area and to stay out of the pool. It wasn’t a bathtub for goodness sake! I might add that they fondled all over each other when they came to the pool (in clothes, not suits). I asked them to leave several times…they don’t like me…hhmmm. Anyway, recently I found out that they moved one of her relatives into their shack with them so they could all have sex together. It’s the sickest thing ever. My stomach still turns to this day. Then, I found out that they had gone months without water service. Fuck that! Those kids need more than that. I called the health department and the kids were gone in a matter of hours. They are now in foster homes and are in school with clean clothes and a more stable environment. I really felt like I was nosing where I shouldn’t, but when it comes to kid’s welfare if we don’t all help out, they may never have a chance at happiness! The Boyers still have no water service and don’t bathe, but seem to be perfectly happy without their children. I just want to walk up and bitch slap both of them when I see them, but instead they get the “you disgust me you filthy trash” look instead.

It's Monday!

Yea, crappy weekend.....I got nothin'! Talk amongst yourselves.

Blah, blah, blah

Brief update:

Stalker moved out from across the street and checked himself into treatment. Yay!

Kitten died. I let a friend try to help and I think it stressed the little thing out too much. *tear*

I completely cleaned off my back sun porch and threw away all the cat stuff. Not doing it again!! My daughter picked out the paint…..sunbeam yellow. I can’t open my eyes when I go out there without shades on, but the plants should grow well!

I finally called in on my neighbors behind me so that they have to mow their yard. You can’t use weeds as fencing no matter how big of a redneck you are!

I need sex!

I also need a vacation, but can’t afford to drive anywhere with the gas prices. I feel like I am stuck in a rather large jail cell.

Do you have any idea how hard it is to come up with shit to write on here when all I do is get up….go to work….and then go home and run my kids around to sports and activities?
Oh, I could tell you about a character that comes into my workplace often. I bet everyone that reads this has a guy just like him in your town! His name is Kenny and he is the most repulsive man you could ever meet. He comes in here to see the attorney. His hair is so greasy it nearly drips onto his already stained, ripped t-shirt. If you look closely you can tell what he has eaten for the last week! Eeww! He is one of those guys that gets in your personal space bubble to talk to you. Luckily, I am behind a rather high counter, but he leans in as close as he can get. His teeth are full of who knows what….but I guess at least he has a tooth. He wears the same nasty jean jacket whether it is winter or summer and he always has a gross story to tell. He does not go away until I tell him to. He came in last week and the attorney was not here, so he told me a joke that I was supposed to try real hard to remember…..did I mention he is a pig and does not think much of women? Anyway, here it is…What does a bobbed wire fence and a mini skirt have in common? They both protect the merchandise, but don’t block the view. *bah-ding* It would have been a little amusing coming from someone who wasn’t such a sick fuck!! I know you want to feel sorry for him, but he has lots of money....he's just lazy and nasty! As soon as he leaves I grab the alcohol pads and the Lysol and get to work.

I hope everyone has a great weekend. I plan to come here on a Monday sometime and tell you all about a great sex full weekend. Shyea…that will happen. I would never bore you with routine sex I have with the ex when I am desperate! lol

Finally out of the shower!

Happy HNT to my friends and the perverts who just stop by to take a peek. I will be doing the same!

I have to add to this post that the American Idol voters suck!! Why the hell is that dorky Taylor still there when my boy Chris got voted off last night? Was everyone too busy drooling to pick up the phone and vote for him? Damn it! At least my other 2 choices are still there. This is the first in 2 years that my top 2 choices were wrong. If Taylor wins it, I will never watch the show again. Later peeps!

Hell Week

I will be mostly gone for a few days, but you can count on Thursday! Sorry to leave ya'll, but if I get some time in the evenings or a couple minutes throughout the day, I will come visit you!!

I'm your Venus...

Good day and Happy HNT!! It's warm in here and everything's clean, come on over!

Random thoughts

I am in a weird mood...my life is so stagnant...I'm horny...Did I feed the dog?...I don't even want to put in the effort it takes to date, I just want to get laid when it's convenient, like 10:30 every night...Do chickens have large talons?...my next door neighbor finally mowed his lawn...it's raining...The weather affects me...I'm stuck at home with a sick kid...I need a vacation...I love blogging, it's like reading other peoples diaries, I'm so nosey...Does honesty really exist...I am ready for summer...I miss my dad...I should quit whining and bitching so much, I have so many good things in my life...I'm horny...sometimes I make myself laugh, how weird is that?...I use my left palm to write reminder words on...I think I'm a bit anal, I have started loading the toilet paper with the flap on top and now I don't like it on bottom...I need a cold beer...when you hit a certain age, do you have to stick with your morals and values or does it even matter how many people you have slept with?...I wish I was interested in more things, like politics and history...I'm a really good painter, why don't I do it anymore?...I'm bored(and horny)!

My Neighborhood

I think I have finally come to the conclusion I am going to have to move. I live in the house my grandpa built and I love it, but it is close to the wrong part of town and the white trash have moved in. Across the street used to be a cute small duplex with only one side rented to a wonderful old lady who always kept an eye on things. The neighbor in the big house next door just bought both of the places and moved a creepy homeless guy into one side. They are into this cult church thing and have all these rehabilitated druggies coming over all the time. In the other half of the duplex, it is rented to a Mexican family. The Dad told me the other day he watches me come and go....yea fucking creepy....I should have never said hi! Let's see....oh, the people who moved in behind me have 3 little kids about 9 months apart that they yell at on a constant basis. The kids are wild! I caught the little yard apes yesterday jumping on my trampoline in my fenced backyard without asking. I should have got out the BB gun and put a cap in their ass, but before I got outside, my 7 year old came around the house and told them to get off and go home....what a bitch.....I was so proud. I know that sounds heartless and it is the parents fault they have no respect for others property, but I am not taking them to raise. Maybe next time they will come up to the front door and ask in a proper manner if they can play on it. Sure...that's gonna happen! Anyway, I have not actually seen the neighbor beside me, but he has started parking his car diagonally in his yard and yes, he has a driveway. So, if you need any good redneck material, come on over and take a stroll through my neck of the woods. I will be moving to the other side of town as soon as possible. Hey, that's a great excuse for a party! Wanna come?